Writings of someone who is NOT a bubblehead

I always thought of myself as a strong independent person. Never needing to lean on a man. Not needing to check up on him all the time and wait for calls/sms.

The past two weeks has been hard on me. Especially the past few days. Its from like calling 3-4 times a day and texting almost non-stop to hardly even 1 sms a day. Worst of all, I'm on holiday.

I don't blame  him for it tho. He told me earlier about it and I accepted it. Promised I wouldn't leave him with the excuse that his job takes over his life - like all his previous exes did. That's his deepest fear, until now.

I realize now that I'm a needy person. That I need my hugs and kisses. I need the "how are u today baby?" I need to hear my phone ringing. I realize now, Im really in love.